Nothing of any interest has happened recently. I've been working on my room, doing laundry, going to work, really nothing worth writing about. I went to start on Granma's shawl (I'm worried if I don't start soon then I'll never finish) only to realize that I had misread the pattern and needed a different yarn, which is a mistake I can't really afford to fix right now. I still haven't finished that blanket, and truthfully, I think I need to redo that part of the next square that I have. I think I picked too complicated a cable pattern to finish it any time soon.
I finally finished reading St. Patrick's Confession, and hope to finish reading the book it was in soon. I'm hoping my sister will be able to visit soon, and that I'll somehow, miraculously, have enough money to get a hotel room so that we can all get together while she's here. I need to do something to relax, but I feel like a spring that all wound up. It'll be better tomorrow, but right now, I'm thinking about everything and it just keeps growing.
I'd appreciate you saying a prayer for me, God knows, I need all the help I can get.
Yours always,
Tara
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Friday, October 10, 2014
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
Motivation problems, scheduling issues, and setting goals
Like many people of all ages, I struggle with motivation. I find it difficult to drag myself out of bed, struggle to push myself to excel, and have issues caring about most things.
This, obviously, is a problem. It's not an easy problem to admit that you have. If you struggle with motivation, you're lazy and deserve to fail. Now I won't say there isn't any truth to that, that the entire idea is unfounded, because it's not. Sometimes I am just being lazy. And then sometimes I'm overwhelmed, sometimes I'm tired, sometimes, I'm just not present.
All of which only serves to make the problems worse. It gets even worse though, when you succeed for a short period of time, say a month or so, and then find yourself back in the rut. You start off getting to be by 12:30 and getting up by 7, and then the next thing you know, it's 1:30 and you haven't even tried to fall asleep. Your alarm goes off and you hit the snooze button (another black mark against second sift, getting up early feels fairly meaningless.)
You realize there's a problem and decide to fix it.....except you don't. Maybe you do it properly for two or three days in a row, but then you're tired, your body is still adjusting back to the proper schedule. It's so easy to get into bad habits, and so hard to get back out of them.
Which is where I'm at now. I know I need to get up earlier. I know I need to (finally) finish unpacking my room. I know I need to clean up more often, and to a higher standard. I know I need to eat better, work out more, and spend less time on my computer.
It's not easy, especially since there is so much to be done. So much I need and want to do, and the time that's available is never enough. But it has to be.
So, I'm making myself accountable right now, and maybe putting it down where everyone who wants to read it can will help keep me going. The goals are simple.
I'd like to lose a minimum of 10lbs.
I'd like to cook at least once a week. Since it's just the two of us at home, that's actually more than enough.
I want to get my room unpacked completely and put together properly by the end of the month.
I want to save up enough money for my tattoo by Christmas.
I want to make at least two items for my Etsy store every week. Not necessarily big things, but something nonetheless.
I want to go through all of my clothes and get rid over anything and everything that doesn't fit or that I don't wear, regardless of what it is.
I want to get up by 7:00 every morning, and be in bed by 12:30 every night, earlier on nights that I can manage it.
Finally, I want to say the rosary at least once a day. I've fallen out of the habit, and I need to get back to it. Especially since I still haven't memorize Hail Holy Queen.
So there we have it. I start tonight, there's not a lot off that list I can do tonight, but I can pray the rosary, and I can get to bed earlier. I have to set out a few items that I'm taking photos of tomorrow, my camera, batteries, and make sure my sd card for my camera is empty so there's plenty of room, but other than that, I don't have a lot left to do.
Pray for me, as I try my best to conquer my own weaknesses through God.
Yours always,
Tara
This, obviously, is a problem. It's not an easy problem to admit that you have. If you struggle with motivation, you're lazy and deserve to fail. Now I won't say there isn't any truth to that, that the entire idea is unfounded, because it's not. Sometimes I am just being lazy. And then sometimes I'm overwhelmed, sometimes I'm tired, sometimes, I'm just not present.
All of which only serves to make the problems worse. It gets even worse though, when you succeed for a short period of time, say a month or so, and then find yourself back in the rut. You start off getting to be by 12:30 and getting up by 7, and then the next thing you know, it's 1:30 and you haven't even tried to fall asleep. Your alarm goes off and you hit the snooze button (another black mark against second sift, getting up early feels fairly meaningless.)
You realize there's a problem and decide to fix it.....except you don't. Maybe you do it properly for two or three days in a row, but then you're tired, your body is still adjusting back to the proper schedule. It's so easy to get into bad habits, and so hard to get back out of them.
Which is where I'm at now. I know I need to get up earlier. I know I need to (finally) finish unpacking my room. I know I need to clean up more often, and to a higher standard. I know I need to eat better, work out more, and spend less time on my computer.
It's not easy, especially since there is so much to be done. So much I need and want to do, and the time that's available is never enough. But it has to be.
So, I'm making myself accountable right now, and maybe putting it down where everyone who wants to read it can will help keep me going. The goals are simple.
I'd like to lose a minimum of 10lbs.
I'd like to cook at least once a week. Since it's just the two of us at home, that's actually more than enough.
I want to get my room unpacked completely and put together properly by the end of the month.
I want to save up enough money for my tattoo by Christmas.
I want to make at least two items for my Etsy store every week. Not necessarily big things, but something nonetheless.
I want to go through all of my clothes and get rid over anything and everything that doesn't fit or that I don't wear, regardless of what it is.
I want to get up by 7:00 every morning, and be in bed by 12:30 every night, earlier on nights that I can manage it.
Finally, I want to say the rosary at least once a day. I've fallen out of the habit, and I need to get back to it. Especially since I still haven't memorize Hail Holy Queen.
So there we have it. I start tonight, there's not a lot off that list I can do tonight, but I can pray the rosary, and I can get to bed earlier. I have to set out a few items that I'm taking photos of tomorrow, my camera, batteries, and make sure my sd card for my camera is empty so there's plenty of room, but other than that, I don't have a lot left to do.
Pray for me, as I try my best to conquer my own weaknesses through God.
Yours always,
Tara
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Tiny Saints, Bad Catholics, and Cabbage patch dolls
My Shining Light Dolls came today. I left St. Nicholas at home, but I brought St. Patrick with me. It's nice to have him sitting on the computer smiling at me while I work. It's silly, but it makes me smile every time I look at him.
I've also been reading more of my Bad Catholic's Guide series. I haven't finished Wine, Whiskey, and Song yet, but I'm also reading a little bit of Good Living. I adore the writing. The humor alone is worth the price, and you don't have to be Catholic, or even considering Catholicism to really enjoy them.
In other news, I've also started on a hat for Little Bird that looks like a Cabbage Patch Dolls hair. Pigtails and yarn loop bangs. Yarn loops! Do you have any idea how hard it was to get that awful loop stitch? Ugh! I was so thankful that St. Patrick is the patron of Ireland and has heard far worse than my grumbling as I tried to make this stupid stitch work. I finally got it right, and I apologized for my less than charitable thoughts toward the inventor of the Loop stitch, the writer of the pattern, and my yarn, but still.
While my tiny Saint keeps smiling, I'm sure St. Patrick himself is continually rolling his eyes at me.
I'm hoping to finish this hat before I drop my truck off to get the alignment fixed, that way I can give it to my mom along with the blanket I bought for Little Bird. It's purple and green and has two little birds at the bottom. It's so cute! And not pink!
Why is EVERYTHING for little girls pink? You have to wait until they hit 1yr. before you get other color options! (Unless you're buying green or yellow, green and yellow are, apparently, gender neutral.) It's a color! Why? Have I mentioned how much I hate assigning genders to colors?
Do you realize that pink was considered a boy color up until the 1950s? and that the only reason it changes is because the Nazis had homosexuals in the concentration camps wear pink triangles? Blue was a girl color, because it was considered calming and delicate.
They are colors! It doesn't matter pink or blue! It's a color! How ridiculous!
Not that I'm against pink. I mean, it's not my favorite color or anything, but I don't mind it. It's just that I find it ridiculous how all that you can find, for the most part, is a wall of pastel pink!
It's a bit much, by my way of thinking.
I did make an appointment with the doctor. It's not until September, but I'll be able to make it until then. I'm hoping that, if I watch what I'm eating, I might be able to avoid a repeat performance of this morning.
Truthfully, it was easier to make the appointment than I had thought it would be. The lady on the other line was very helpful, and it made it easier. I'm still not happy about it, but such is life.
I would appreciate your prayers, especially since I have to get up early tomorrow morning. I'm praying for a good day tomorrow. If I make it to morning mass, I usually have a good day after wards.
I'm going to call it a night, and get to work on that Cabbage patch hat.
Yours always,
Tara
I've also been reading more of my Bad Catholic's Guide series. I haven't finished Wine, Whiskey, and Song yet, but I'm also reading a little bit of Good Living. I adore the writing. The humor alone is worth the price, and you don't have to be Catholic, or even considering Catholicism to really enjoy them.
In other news, I've also started on a hat for Little Bird that looks like a Cabbage Patch Dolls hair. Pigtails and yarn loop bangs. Yarn loops! Do you have any idea how hard it was to get that awful loop stitch? Ugh! I was so thankful that St. Patrick is the patron of Ireland and has heard far worse than my grumbling as I tried to make this stupid stitch work. I finally got it right, and I apologized for my less than charitable thoughts toward the inventor of the Loop stitch, the writer of the pattern, and my yarn, but still.
While my tiny Saint keeps smiling, I'm sure St. Patrick himself is continually rolling his eyes at me.
I'm hoping to finish this hat before I drop my truck off to get the alignment fixed, that way I can give it to my mom along with the blanket I bought for Little Bird. It's purple and green and has two little birds at the bottom. It's so cute! And not pink!
Why is EVERYTHING for little girls pink? You have to wait until they hit 1yr. before you get other color options! (Unless you're buying green or yellow, green and yellow are, apparently, gender neutral.) It's a color! Why? Have I mentioned how much I hate assigning genders to colors?
Do you realize that pink was considered a boy color up until the 1950s? and that the only reason it changes is because the Nazis had homosexuals in the concentration camps wear pink triangles? Blue was a girl color, because it was considered calming and delicate.
They are colors! It doesn't matter pink or blue! It's a color! How ridiculous!
Not that I'm against pink. I mean, it's not my favorite color or anything, but I don't mind it. It's just that I find it ridiculous how all that you can find, for the most part, is a wall of pastel pink!
It's a bit much, by my way of thinking.
I did make an appointment with the doctor. It's not until September, but I'll be able to make it until then. I'm hoping that, if I watch what I'm eating, I might be able to avoid a repeat performance of this morning.
Truthfully, it was easier to make the appointment than I had thought it would be. The lady on the other line was very helpful, and it made it easier. I'm still not happy about it, but such is life.
I would appreciate your prayers, especially since I have to get up early tomorrow morning. I'm praying for a good day tomorrow. If I make it to morning mass, I usually have a good day after wards.
I'm going to call it a night, and get to work on that Cabbage patch hat.
Yours always,
Tara
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Punctured balloons and the importance of positive thought
My day started off really good. An early start to the day, mass, coffee with a friend, and my copy of Rome Sweet Home by Scott Hahn arrived! All in all, a good and profitable morning. This trend continued on into the evening. Until about an hour ago when my boss informed me that he was cutting a full day off of my work week, taking my time for the week, starting next pay-period, from 42hrs to 32 hrs.
Now, my paycheck will still be sufficient for my needs, thank God, but that's still a roughly $200 dollar pay cut. I've already canceled my ancestry.com account, so that'll help, and once I fix the front end alignment on my truck, I really don't have any major purchases. I have decided to start looking for a new job, and who knows? Maybe I'll be able to get a job that will allow me to take part in RCIA classes, which would be nice.
With all of this said, I have decided that I am NOT! going to let this destroy the good mood I've had since mass this morning, and I'm thinking I might go to mass tomorrow morning too! I think I might be able to finish my book by tomorrow too!
It's so interesting to read how Mr. Hahn and his wife went from being die-hard Protestants, to being Catholic. Honestly, the more I read and research, the more it looks like the right way. Jury is still out though. I'll keep you posted.
In other news, I'm considering applying for a temp job overseas. I've decided that I'll do some research, ask some questions, and if it's a good deal, I'll apply. I'll hold off until at least January, longer if I do decide the road to Rome is right, and then if it's all good, I'll go for it.
The job's in Germany, which is great, because I lived there for six years and I loved it. I'm not very fluent in German, but I can work on building my fluency better in Germany than I can here in the States, and language fluency at level 3 or 4 would look good on a resume, right? I'd like to eventually achieve level 5 fluency, but I'm not even sure I'm level 5 fluent in English so I'm not holding my breath.
It's also pretty close to the area I lived in before, so I've got a pretty good idea of what to expect. They'll pay airfare and provide lodging. I'm actually hoping, if I do go, that my sister will go with me and we can room together, because that'll be pretty awesome!
All in all, I guess the best thing I can do is ask, dear readers, that you pray for me. Pray I find my way, and pray for open doors, and if I can not have open doors, pray for open windows!
Yours always,
Tara
Now, my paycheck will still be sufficient for my needs, thank God, but that's still a roughly $200 dollar pay cut. I've already canceled my ancestry.com account, so that'll help, and once I fix the front end alignment on my truck, I really don't have any major purchases. I have decided to start looking for a new job, and who knows? Maybe I'll be able to get a job that will allow me to take part in RCIA classes, which would be nice.
With all of this said, I have decided that I am NOT! going to let this destroy the good mood I've had since mass this morning, and I'm thinking I might go to mass tomorrow morning too! I think I might be able to finish my book by tomorrow too!
It's so interesting to read how Mr. Hahn and his wife went from being die-hard Protestants, to being Catholic. Honestly, the more I read and research, the more it looks like the right way. Jury is still out though. I'll keep you posted.
In other news, I'm considering applying for a temp job overseas. I've decided that I'll do some research, ask some questions, and if it's a good deal, I'll apply. I'll hold off until at least January, longer if I do decide the road to Rome is right, and then if it's all good, I'll go for it.
The job's in Germany, which is great, because I lived there for six years and I loved it. I'm not very fluent in German, but I can work on building my fluency better in Germany than I can here in the States, and language fluency at level 3 or 4 would look good on a resume, right? I'd like to eventually achieve level 5 fluency, but I'm not even sure I'm level 5 fluent in English so I'm not holding my breath.
It's also pretty close to the area I lived in before, so I've got a pretty good idea of what to expect. They'll pay airfare and provide lodging. I'm actually hoping, if I do go, that my sister will go with me and we can room together, because that'll be pretty awesome!
All in all, I guess the best thing I can do is ask, dear readers, that you pray for me. Pray I find my way, and pray for open doors, and if I can not have open doors, pray for open windows!
Yours always,
Tara
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